It’s been such a beautiful day today, which is fitting considering it’s the first day I’ve felt human again for the first time in weeks. The sun was shining, I could feel the heat on my skin and my husband was by my side helping to keep a close eye on our cheeky little monkey Matthew.
It was needed.
I’ve had the most stressful week ever, for a few of reasons:
- Matthew has been particularly challenging.
- My mental health has been at an all time low.
- The weathers been absolutely horrendous.
I mentioned last week that I felt like my anti-anxiety medication was no longer working and while I still believe that has something to do with it, I honestly think this has just been a particularly rough patch. PMS and extra stress from Matthew have most definitely added to my already vulnerable state of mind.
Not that I’m blaming my beautiful boy. Not. At. All.
Actually he’s just been your typical toddler when it comes to his behaviour. However, he’s been VERY sensitive and has experienced an awful lot of sensory overload and so it’s been hard to watch and even harder to help him.
So trust me when I say today has come along like a breath of fresh air.
We spent time in the garden tonight before our little man went to bed and there was a moment where I was sat staring at my husband and son playing together, where I just felt at peace.
No matter how low I’m feeling, they will always be the ones to bring me back to life. There’s nothing more I want from my life than that.
Tags: autism, family, mental health